Why My Husband Is My Hero

My husband…he is my hero in so many ways! As I pout and moan over the “big girl” shorts that I just bought not fitting. He always knows what to do. He enters the room all aggressive, puffed up, looking for a fight. He grabs the shorts out of my hand, and punches them to the ground and kicks them across the room. My hero. ???☺️ He always knows how to make me laugh when…

Continue Reading →

My Struggle with Bulimia

Here I am sitting at the library with four books in front of me:–Midlife Eating Disorders-Shades of Hope: How to Treat Your Addiction to Food-Food Freedom Forever-What We Talk About When We Talk About Rape I am 10 minutes-ish post binge. As I walked into the library doors after dropping my bag of guilt in the trash can outside, I walked past the bathroom wondering if I should. Knowing that would make me feel worse…

Continue Reading →

The Dread of Shorts

Do you dread trying your shorts on for the first time each spring like me??? It’s that wonderful time again…almost….the first time of the season where I put my shorts on…. I know it’s only March but I figured the sooner the better. Here is the golden question…. To lose weight and fit into my closet full of clothes worth thousands (because there are a lot of clothes I ain’t that fancy) or to buy…

Continue Reading →

What It’s Like to Struggle With Food

I have been feeling pretty good for a few weeks. I can’t say that anything has changed though. I am still overweight…obese by medical standards…still eating unhealthily quite regularly, still not working out regularly. I have not been using my happy light much as there has been enough light coming in the window of my cubicle. Despite the dumpsters and razor wire, I try to be thankful I have a window at all.   I…

Continue Reading →

How to Keep Trying

This journey so far has been difficult for Steven and me reliving some of this stuff. We come from very different worlds and have different ideas of how life happens. On my positive hand, I think that we were meant to find each other and help each other heal and grow into better human beings that are more and more enlightened each day. Then my negative hand slaps me in the face and says “dumb…

Continue Reading →